Life is really complicated.  Sometimes I'm up, sometimes I'm down.  Sometimes I think I can do anything, other times I feel powerless.  It's kind of an odd predicament that we're all in.  We're all in pursuit of happiness but it is so incredibly hard to find.  I wonder if true happiness is really there or it's just some quixotic desire.  It isn't even really that logical.  I can feel unhappy and dissatisfied when I am completely aware that people have it worse elsewhere.  Just turn on the news and people all over are going through worse situations.  People are going through war, torn from their homes, family members killed, and I'm just mopin' about how hard life is...it doesn't make sense.  And sure I can say that for that exact same reason I shouldn't be sad or mad or dissatisfied, then it's just my fault for thinking that way and that's almost as bad.

Also, I am in my senior year of college and I'm yet to .  I too wonder if my idea of love is too ideal and that is why I'm a little afraid to try because of a fear of dissapointment.  It's crazy because people around me are getting married, even people who are younger than me.  Maybe it is out there, and I'm just not optimistic enough.  After all the only people who ever achieve great things do it out of a great belief and supreme optimism.  I'll listen to some song and it will describe to me what love is and it's some beautiful fulfilling experience.  But I guess it's best to believe that, I mean that's all a girl wants right?  A romantic, or atleast someone who can create that feeling.  But there is always reality to battle idealism.  I believe a lot of what people have relationships for is also for status, both guys and girls.  It seems to be generally acknowledged that social pressures call for guys to have the hottest looking girl, while girls try to get the guy that will have a good job.  At least when it comes to marriage. 

Anyways I guess my only option is to have idealism for love and see what transpires.